Lyrics

Consciously stalling, lost in space
Grounded in one place with no direction
I barely even recognise my face
Don’t see the point in masquerading
With all the days invading one other
And I can’t even gauge where I belong

In my fortress I’m forced to rely
On the practices and patterns, pushing chaos to the side

Put on a t-shirt, jacket, and jeans
Though it’s only me who ever sees them,
I’ve got to keep a hold of my routine
The little things that keep me sane
When I’m feeling like a stranger in my own home
Dislocated and detained from how I’d feel

In any other year when I would know
What to do with all my passion, I had so much to bestow
Now where do we go?

Burning out, burdened by worry and doubt
And the feeling won’t subside
Certainty certainly feels like a fantasy
When I don’t get to decide
How the burnout will burn me up inside
 
I take my workload with caffeine
Only getting up to clean my clothes and kitchen
Then it’s right back to the screen
Constantly moving my trinkets around
Fill my head with sound to keep the motion
But I keep slowing down